Today

1 If today was the last day, you could say anything to me, what would you say?

Answer-  Well I guess I don't understand the question fully, because what it means to be the last day?

Are we breaking up, or I am dying or you're dying or we are going far away or what is happening?

If we are breaking up, of course it is you who will break up, because I won't do it, so I will say "Beware, Punishment is coming" and if I am dying, I would not utter a word, just want to stay with you, plus if you're dying, then I'll speak every word you want me to…if it's singing Lullaby, your favourite song, or the last classical music you want to listen from me.. or anything you want. I'll speak.

If we are going far away, I do not know how, but if it's so, I don't think we are not speaking again.. I'll call you.

If you're saying, today is the last day on earth, and we all are dying, then I'll take you to a peaceful place, and stay there in final moments. What else? What else to speak?

I don't think we need to speak any further.

2 What's something you want me to know but find hard to say?

Answer-  Yes, there are plenty things I do find hard to say, but I'll tell you some.

Firstly I find it so hard to express my emotions for you. I find it so hard to tell you that you're really precious for me.

Secondly I have been very keen of not being loved, I have been fond of staying unloved.. the reason is trust issue.

When I get love, I get fucked up soon, they leave and I am alone. So I'm trying digest your love. I'm learning and please, when I used to say…something in against the love you show, is to protect myself unconsciously.

I have learnt alot, I'm learning to digest you, your love and your concern. So, sorry for that behaviour.

Now I am fine. In the last meeting you might have experienced the change.

Thirdly, I don't like it when you say I do not wanna talk. I feel like you're stubborn, and like other girls, you're being very childish. Anyways… you can continue it.

3 What's the best thing I have ever said to you?

Answer - The best you ask? Let me think.

" I love you, I can't live without you" & "You're mine"

4 Tell me one thing I should learn from you?

Answer - You've very prominent Mercury in the zodiac of Jupiter, with Sun Venus, and Zodiac exchange with 5-7 houses, 9th house Moon(bit afflicted by Rahu) but all these qualities, you are already intelligent enough to survive, I don't know what you need to learn from me, but I'll suggest you to be open about exploitative behaviour, whether it's your father, sister colleague, whoever.

Counterbalance the power tussle in all spheres of life.

Be more strong in emotional intelligence. Emotions must not be heavy on your rational. You've twice hard challenge. Be more strong.

5 What's the one thing I do not know about you?

Answer - So many things.

Let me give you some picturesque idea about this, very interesting to know. Haha.

 

1. I am not very intelligent, as you picture me.

2. I wanted to be a beggar at the doorstep of lord Shiva temple in Kashi or join Aghor Matth.

3. I love farming, and I want simple life.

4. I don't have love for money but I do over expenditure.

5. I desired to be an Army Lieutenant. 

6. I desired to leave India and work outside of India.

7. I used to like white girls but later on skin colour discrimination I left, I understood it is something unholy in eyes of my lord.

8. I tried to kill one of my classmates in very young age but eventually his father died so he was saved that day.

9. I would really be a nasty person if you be against me..or you try to harm me. 

10. I am 24/7 angry and I do not like cold weather, I love hot weather.

11. I liked eating meat and the taste still remains.

12. I am the worst being, but your immense love is totally overwhelming me.

There are more, let's discuss some other day.